Confidence?

do you remember the nights when the light was so bright that we had to blind our selves from it?
do you remember the days that were so dark we had to turn on the brightest light to look at it?

how is it we can only see what is in front of us but never behind it?
how is it we can forget the sweetest things are actually the bitters things?

does it have to be so hard for us to let go?
does it have to be so easy for us to take?

how is it the person that we once look up as the 1 turned out to be nothing?
how is it the person that we once look up as nothing turned out to be the 1?

when was the last time did we once looked at ourselves for who we are?
when was the last time did I once looked at myself for who i am?

Yay !!

YAY!!
new Job !!
hopefully a New CAr~
A new Start !!
And hopefully a new way of life =)

death is like a broken code of life

Today is a friend of mine whose death anniversary i mourn...
Last week was another friend whose life has just ended..
2 days ago i almost cried when my mum came out of her room asking me 2 rub her swollen leg.. i told my self mom.. i don't want you 2 leave me yet.. it is still early..
then after rubbing her leg she felt better..
was wondering is it the thought that counts?

A few days ago.. i was talking 2 a friend who gave up everything that was once precious to him.. worried and very sad i am for him but i know he knows what he is doing

Ah...

Really a long time since i wrote sumting..
thx to jave 4 reminding me 2 update it at least lolx..

Was wondering at times does it take an eternity 2 learn something new or just a spark of inteligence 2 do it


Saw the 2 recently ..
was preety stupefied from wat he said 2 me..
i really never expected this 2 come so quitely .. sounds just like death..

4 more months 2 go and i would love 2 go back 2 joining my buddhist comunity frenz..
i really have no idea what have i ever done 4 them that was ever helpfull

was asked by sum1 recently .. y do u game so often..
i told that person..
i need 2 dstrees..
he says.. wha??? u dun look stress
oh i am ... coz when i game i get more stress when i play with !@#$#


=_________="

saw jave on9 but din want 2 disturb him..
i know he is stresed over sumting
i just dont know what...
let him cool it off i say
he will recover someday soon
the song below is 4 u jinzo

hope u can grasp the meaning of the song =)

Lucky....

Do you hear me,
I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky oh my, baby I'm trying
Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Oooohhhhoohhhhohhooohhooohhooohoooh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music, fill the air
I put a flower in your hair
Though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ooooh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh